What does emotional abuse look like?
Enable me, Lord, to shift— from storing hatred in to pour out my heart before You. . . . Pour out your heart before Him (Psalm 62:8b NASB).
I hated his actions. Why did he not listen? Traveling and sleeping in the same room with her and not married screamed boundary violation. It was like the man stabbed me deep in my heart with a five-inch knife blade. I wrenched, bled in betrayal. I escaped and screamed outside in the dark, and collapsed on the lawn. The agony of being ignored, again, ricocheted through my body.
I needed help. But, who and where God?
What does emotional abuse look like?
The chronic abuse of being deceived, manipulated, criticized, and controlled was taking its toll. I didn’t know how much longer I could live in this pretense. The pit of hopelessness was beckoning me to bow. I needed to act.
Where do you turn when life catches up with you?
Before the foundation of the world, Jesus knew your days and mine. He hardwired you and me with the exact raw talents to endure our life stories. One of my talents is discipline.
So the next morning after the stabbing of my heart, I did what I normally do, met Jesus on the pages of my Bible. Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.
Tears plopped and I tipped and poured my heart out to God in prayer. Next, I got up and jumped on my treadmill.
As I clicked off the miles I knew hatred wanted to replace the knife that was still lodged in my heart. Yet, I knew if I allowed the hatred in, I would be worse off. I chose to act. I spit out the hatred on the basement tile. Again, I spit. The hatred from his actions was not going to defeat me and fashion me into a bitter woman. I chose to pour out my heart before Him. Will you?
Questions for YOU:
Do you pour your heart out to Him? What do you need to pour out to Him? (Weapons can be covert or overt with emotional abuse.)
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