Enable me, Lord, to shift—from feeling no one sees me to believing the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth.
For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His … (2 Chronicles 16:9a NASB)
Do you as a woman l-o-n-g- to be seen?
I clutched my Bible, sobbed, and knelt on my bedroom floor. God, do you see me? I hurt. No one knows my life. Help me not go crazy, please. My heart was bruised, barely beating, and tired. I was close to the edge—hopeless.
Physically, he hadn’t beaten me, but I wished he would have. Then I would have called the police and had physical proof of my abuse. I would’ve gotten help and out of my abusive environment sooner. I even told those words to my mediator during divorce proceedings. His unfortunate answer: “Do you know how many women have told me the same thing?”
The abuse of being emotionally neglected and ignored daily by the man who was supposed to be my trusted partner was a searing cut to my soul. To add to my wounds, other people in the household, for instance, female students, received more acknowledgment and attention than I did. This communicated a clear message to me: “You are not worth my time, my attention, or my breath. Ignore her. Delete her. You are of no value.”
How was I supposed to process these actions and their accompanying emotional blows? His emotional abandonment and psychological torment cut like a knife and sliced my heart to pieces.
Do you long to be seen?
But God. I recalled reading a verse, I flung my Bible open to find that verse. I read, “For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His …” (2 Chronicles 16:9a NASB).
Could this be true? God’s eyes are on the move, YES! He’s on the hunt for hearts that are His! And God strongly supports those hearts! I had nothing to lose. Either God would show up and lead me, or I was dead. It was my job, though, and my choice to give God my heart and keep it tipped toward Him. How about you?
- Do you believe God sees you?
- Enable me, Lord, to shift feelings that no one sees to the Truth. Your eyes are moving to and fro throughout the world looking for hearts that are Yours and that you will strongly support. Thank you and Amen.
God supports hearts that are His.
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